Rare Happenings

I very rarely will go in to work and sit down and think to myself "this is a good morning." BUT, today is one of those days. I woke up feeling very peaceful and relaxed (not typically how I feel first thing), so I stayed in bed a little while and enjoyed it a bit. I was out of bed early enough that I didn't have to rush to get ready. I went outside and the weather is beautiful. And, the rarest thing of all, I made it to work with time to spare. I wish every morning was like today. Let's hope the rest of the day goes just as well, I want to make this feeling last as long as possible.

Blabbering

I forgot how much I enjoy food! I am finally able to eat again. And I know many of you were enjoying the mute version of me, but get over it. I can talk again! It's good to be healthy. Although, the whole losing 15 pounds thing has caused some issues. First, I have Scott who thinks all of a sudden my body is super hot now and can't keep his hands off of me. He keeps telling me not to gain any of the weight back. Then I meet my mom for dinner and before I can sit down she's telling me how horrible I look and how she needs to fatten me up. She said I've lost too much and look like the walking dead. How can two people have such different views of me and how am I supposed to ever have a positive outlook of my own body when there are such conflicting opinions of what looks good. Here's what I have to say about it, do either of you care that I feel better now?! I lost the weight from being sick and I'm sure it's going to be back soon. I don't really care! I looked fine before and I look fine now! My body does not make me who I am and should not dictate what people think of me. Both my boyfriend and my mother are two people that I would have expected to love me for who I am and not obsess over a few pounds. Honestly, 15 pounds doesn't make that big of difference. It's not enough to suddenly make me look hot and it's not enough to make me look like a skeleton. It's only enough to make my jeans a little baggy. Big woop. Anyways, just had to vent a little, people just annoy me sometimes. I'll be over it by the end of the day. I'm just thrilled to be feeling better and I can go back to enjoying life again!

Something Good

So, I've done a lot of complaining about being sick, sorry. I'm still sick, but not going to write about it. I got to pitch again last night. Some of you will have no idea how much fun that is for me. Especially now that I found a catcher that will ride my butt. I love the way he gets on me. Hmmm... those last two sentences could be taken way out of context, maybe I should rephrase. He doesn't let me slack off. He knows that I'm just pitching for fun, but at the same time I want to do it right. So, he makes me do it right. I love that. I started throwing a little better last night. Being sick actually made me concentrate more, plus it was super hot and I always perform better when it's hot. That's when my muscles get really relaxed and loose. Plus I love to work up a sweat, makes me feel like I'm working hard. Anyways, enough proving my oddness. I'll shut up for now.

I'm Back :(

Well, I just got back from the doctor. There is still nothing they can give me, I just have to wait it out. He said it's a virus that lasts 10 days, I'm on day 7 now, so only a few more days. He said it's the worst case he's seen all year. My fever is still over 100. I've also lost about 15 pounds in a week (not sure if that's such a bad thing). Good news is, he says it's like chicken pox, you get it once and that's it. He said it's not usually something adults get, lucky me! So, I have arthritis and gout, which I shouldn't have yet and I also get a kids virus. What's up with that?! Oh well, at least the end of it is near. He says that very rarely will a family member or close friend catch it, so at least you don't have to be afraid of me. Just don't touch my mouth and you're good. My boss wants me to go home, so I'm leaving at 1:30 today. So, after 2:00, I'll be pretty much out of contact with the world, I need some relaxation.

Finally!

I finally got to make an appointment to actually have a doctor look at me. I went in last week for a two minute appointment with a nurse that wanted me to give myself the strep test. Comes back negative and they tell me to take Tylenol and wait it out. Then saturday, I couldn't take it and called back, my doctor gives me a 3 day prescription over the phone, said I'll be cleared up by monday or tuesday. Umm... it's tuesday.... and it's not cleared up... at all. I'll be going in this morning, hopefully he can do something for me. Hopefully I'll be able to write good news when I get back (good news would be them actually being able to tell me what's wrong and having good prescription drugs). Pray for me or wish me good luck, whichever is your preference of belief.

Well, I Sort Of Worked

My boss is taking pity on me and letting me leave at 2:00. That gives me time to take a good long nap before going to the ball field. Plus, with Scott gone, I wasn't sure how I was going to get the equipment to the field on time. Luckily he left his truck so I can haul all the equipment. So, everything is working out just fine. Now, let's just hope I wake up from my nap in time, I have a bad habit of over sleeping when I'm sick, I zone out and ignore alarms.

Back to Work I Go

No, I'm not better yet, but I'm going to work today. I can't stand staying at home all day. It drove me crazy to have to miss part of our tournament. I know the team was in capable hands though. It's nice to know I have coaches I can rely on. Although, I know this a certain someone's plan to take over the team, but that's not going to happen, I'm too good, you can't replace me ;-). Scott got a call this morning at 6:30 and was told to pack his bags. He went out of town this morning. He should be back on friday, so it's not a big deal. I think he said he was going to North Platte. I was half asleep when he told me, so I'm not positive on that. I'm sure I'll talk to him tonight and find out for sure. I do feel bad though, I told him he could coach 1st base at one of our games tonight. He was all excited. Oh well, there's plenty more games left.

Life Changes, Deal With It

Sometimes on the way to a dream, you get lost and find a better one. I put this quote on my blog for a reason. It has become the motto of my life. I won't go into great detail. But, I officially have quit school today. Of course, there will be a lot of people saying I'm making a big mistake (my boss already said those exact words this morning). But, this is my life and I can live it how I choose. The main person I thought would be disappointed, is actually the most supportive. My mom is behind me 100%. I have been rejoined with the love of my life, softball. This year has honestly made me happier than I have been in a loooong time. This is what I want to do. I make decent money doing pitching lessons and I make enough at my current job to keep the bills paid and food on the table. I don't need a big fancy job or lots of money to make me happy. This year has taught me that doing something I love and feeling like I'm doing something good for myself and others, is much more important to me. Besides, colleges will always be there and I can always go back. I feel good about my decision and that's all that should matter.

Charlie Brown meets Paris

Surprise Separation

My voice has decided to take some time away from me for a while. I should have seen the signs, it's been threatening me for a week, but I was a fool. I didn't expect to wake up this morning to it completely gone, no note, no nothing. It's very sad.

I'm Getting Spoiled

I got to do two things I love, two days in a row. I went fishing Tuesday and then last night, I got to pitch. It has been 5 years since I have been able to pitch like that. Sure, I've goofed around and pitched a couple, but not like that. It was so much fun. Of course, I totally sucked compared to how I used to play, but I guess I expected that. Hopefully I'll get to throw more often. It's a rush I can't explain. It's almost better than....

Relaxation

I finally know the meaning of relaxation. I have been so rushed and busy all the time, I forgot how it felt to have a night to relax. Last night I went out to the lake and attempted to fish. I, of course, was shown up by a 13 year old. But what she doesn't know is, I let her show me up! ;-) Just wait til next time, when I can actually fish legally (I don't have a fishing license yet). It's been a year and a half since I've gone fishing, I used to go a couple times a week. It's sort of a therapeutic thing for me. It's probably the only time I get to just sit and relax and not worry about anything but a line in the water. We couldn't have asked for better weather. Although the beautiful environment being filled with cigarette smoke almost ruined the whole experience of being outside in the fresh air (you know who you are!). Luckily I was in such a good mood that I was able to put up with you, I mean the smoke.

What A Scream

I officially sound like a man today. I did more yelling over the weekend than I think I have in the past year. Our tournament this weekend was full of all kinds of drama. I won't go in to detail, but the way the tournament was ran and the umpires was a complete disappointment and I had to do some yelling. There was no way I could control myself. I also had to do a little yelling with the girls too (which I HATE to do), but that wasn't a mean, mad yelling, more like getting their attention yelling. I have a feeling the girls will sound as rough as I do tonight. They got soooo pumped up and were yelling and cheering so loud. I think they caught the attention of everyone in the ball park. I am so proud of them for their attitudes and their good sportsmanship. Sometimes it's really hard to be good sports when you get something ripped out from under you so unfairly and these girls did a great job controlling their anger. We did have a lot of good things happen in the tournament and I'm still very pleased with how well the girls played and came together as a team. I also had a great time camping. I think I got 4 hours of sleep with friday night and saturday night combined. I love sitting in front of a fire. We have two games tonight, I hope the girls come as fired up as they were yesterday. Go Shockers!

Pitctures Cont'd

Pictures from LaVista tournament

WooHoo!!!!!!!!!!!!

SCHOOL'S OUT FOR SUMMER! I finished my last final last night. What a relief it is to have one thing gone from my plate. Although, now that I have free nights, I'm moving pitching lessons to week nights and we have tournaments just about every weekend, so now I have softball 7 days a week. It's a dang good thing I love this game! This weekend we're going to Lincoln for a tournament and a couple of us are camping. I am soooo looking forward to it. I'm sure I'll have lots to write about when I get back on Monday.