Tease

This week's weather was definitely a big tease! It was great weather for February. I was able to wear just my leather jacket instead of my big heavy winter coat. I even brought out a pair of flip flops one day (probably wasn't nice enough for those, but I just had to do it!). As I posted a couple months ago, I got a fishing boat for Christmas. This weather has REALLY got me anxious for spring so I can take my boat out on the lake. It also has me excited to get the girls outside for softball practice. Being stuck inside for practice all winter gets frustrating and I find it a little harder to keep the girls motivated. This week gave me a little sense of hope and definitely has me anxious! BUT, this weekend we're supposed to get a snow storm and all those thoughts will fall to the ground along with the snow flakes. I really do not like winter, at least not the winters in Nebraska. I could definitely live a happy life never seeing snow again!

Complaint

Ok, I need to just state something just to get it out. I'm not always a giving person, I definitely have my selfish moments. But, I'm still going to complain. I feel I am a fairly giving person in the fact that I spend the majority (around 15 hours a week) coaches girls' softball. I love softball and I love working with the kids. It gives me a sense of worth in the world. But, I have come across a person that just wants to keep taking and taking and taking from me until eventually she'll be sucking the blood and air out of me! She has come to expect me to do anything and everything she asks. I'm getting very tired of it. The problem is, I really like the kid. So, I feel stuck. It's very difficult for me to say no. But, about a month or so ago I had asked her to do something for me (she volunteered and I took her up on it). She has taken all this time to finally give me a response and expects me to pull everything together for it in 3 days! She was supposed to tell me the details a month ago and I kept asking and she would tell me she would find out. Now that it's down to the wire, she's making it seem as if it's all my fault and I'm the one that wasn't prepared. GRRR!!! Sorry, it's hard to post details on a public webpage, so this is as in detail as I can get.

Bitter?

This holiday stirs up all kinds of issues among people. Now, just remember, this is a generic comment, not directing at all women. Some women have reason to gripe and complain. BUT, many women need to get over their bitterness! There are many women that complain that their boyfriend/husband doesn't do anything big and romantic for Valentine's Day. But, here's the question I ask "what did you do for him?" 9 times out of 10 the answer is "nothing." Women belive this day is just for the men to do things for the women. A few guys I work near proved this statement. They all said they won't get anything today. Here's my thought, if the woman does something extraordinary and shows him how much she appreciates him, he's a heck of a lot more likely to return the gesture. A relationship should never be one sided. Both sides need to have an equal role in the relationship. Any of you can disagree with this post, but it doesn't really matter to me. This is my blog about my opinions. So there! :-P

Happy Valentine's Day!

So, most men do the typical flowers and chocolate. But, not my man, this is what I got!! It had to have been hilarious for my co-workers to see me walking them to my desk. The best part, one of the balloons has a button to push that plays music. On my way to my desk, I'm going just past the cubicles closet to me (all filled with people I work with directly) and another balloon hits the button! It started played the song! There was definitely no way I was sneaking to my desk unnoticed. It was funny and very cute! Thanks Michael! And I also got a Reese's Peanut Butter Cup valentine on my desk this morning too, Thank you Onion Boy! I love Reese's!! Happy Valentine's Day to everyone!

New Place

I have been in my apartment now for over week. I must say I LOVE my apartment. I think Maxeen and I did a really good job on picking out our furniture. It looks really nice. I got my fish tank (christmas present) all set up. But, I have a bully in the tank, my dragan fish ate another fish. Poor thing! :-( The new apartment gives me a sense of independence which I always crave (and that is of no offense to anyone, just a personality trait). It also finally lets me feel more grown up. I've been under someone else's roof (although the someone varied from year to year) for 25 years and I can finally say I'm putting my own roof over my head. I like that feeling. Of course, there are always issues that come along with everything. I'm battling the issue of leaving Michael's place. We both got spoiled by me staying with him, but we both know that officially moving in together is not what the doctor ordered! Timing is EVERYTHING and now is not the time. I love him and have no doubts that I want to be with him. But anyone who knows us knows the current situation. Plus, I really need this apartment on my own. It's just something I really feel I need. There are some benefits. And no, I'm not talking about quiet nights of sleep without the snorring (although that's nice too!). We get to go back to that new relationship feeling. We go back to desiring to see the other. And I get all dressed up for a date without him seeing me get ready. I like that. So, it's just going to take a little time to adjust. I just hope he knows I love him just the same (if not more) than I did 2 weeks ago when I was still staying with him. I want him even more now and that will definitely work out to him benefit! Well, that's all I have to say about that! =)

=)

So, my recovery from my surgery is almost complete! Of course, I don't have the same movement in my arm, can't straighten it the same as I could before. Part of my arm will always be numb and it's tender and tingly in other parts. But, I now have better movement and feeling in all of my fingers. I was able to play catch the other night without a whole lot of pain. That was awesome! I've been wanting to throw for months. Between coaching and doing pitching lessons, I have 16 hours of a softball a week. Going to that much softball and not being able to throw or anything was torture!!!! I feel human again to start getting back in to things.

Bitter Sweet

Well, last Thursday was moving day. I still have a ton of unpacking to do, but it's getting there. Much thanks to Michael and Mike for moving my things and to my stepdad for helping hang up pictures and putting my chair together. I couldn't have done it without you guys! I've been busy getting all the little odds and ends that go along with a new home. It was actually a lot of fun picking out furniture and decor and such. I'm very happy with the result of my room. Everything goes together just as I had hoped! My mattress is super comfy, I've had the best sleep I've had in years (without the help of sleeping pills)! Maxeen and I getting along well. I'm sure we'll have our disagreements every once in a while, but I think we will be fine. We're both so busy, who has time to disagree! So, everything seems as if it's going well. BUT, it's still sad to have moved. Maxeen and I had been staying at Michael's for a short time while we waited for our apartment to finish being built. So, leaving his place has definitely been sad. But, I think we'll adjust and get used to the current living situation. Besides, I'm only one building away from him! :o) I think things will work out!