Changes

For those of you who don't know, Scott and I broke up on Wednesday. There's no drama, no big juicy details to share. What happened is between him and myself. I will be bouncing around staying with different people until I get an official place to call home again. I have a great life and have many things to be happy for. Life changes, it's what you do with those changes that matters. I never have regrets and I always try to take something from each experience. I've learned and grown a lot in the two years we were together and it's part of what has made me who I am today. Thanks to those of you who have supported me and been a listening ear for me lately. It's nice to know there are people out there I can count on.

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ZZZZZ.....

I have declared that there should be a mandatory nap time at my work every afternoon. For some reason, I get very sleepy in the afternoon. Today it hit me earlier than normal, which totally stinks because I have a long time to go before I'm off work. There has been a time or two where I have actually dozed off sitting up at my desk. As much as this is a terrible thing to do while at work, it can be nice to be able to drift off to a nice day dream to break up the monotonous daily activity I call work. I have noticed my mind wandering quite a bit lately. That's not typical of me, but I'm really not complaining. It's probably not a good habit to get in to, but it does get me through the day and I seem to be in much better spirits lately too. I guess change can be good.

The Xtreme Team

After a long evening of debating, discussing, hair pulling conversation, we finally got our stuff together and got a lot of things prepared for our new team we're putting together for next year. The name and logo was the longest process. I have to give a lot of credit to Michael for how it turned out. We all threw out some ideas, but he pulled it all together and I love how it turned out. If you want to check out our new site, it's www.eteamz.com/nextreme. There's not really anything on there yet except the logo, but I still suggest checking it out. I'm getting excited about next year now. I got nervous about it for a little while, questioning if we can get enough girls. But, now that things are getting under way and we're starting to talk to people, I think we'll have no problems. I think next year is going to be a very good year!

Not the Brightest Color in the Crayon Box

So, I go to watch Taylor play last night and her coach needs her to warm up pitching. Taylor's dad didn't have a glove and is left handed, so he couldn't just pick up any glove and catch for her. So, me being me, I offer to catch. Let's set up the whole picture, I'm wearing jeans and sandals and don't have my glasses. To get to the point, I took a pitch right on top of my toes and am pretty sure I broke one. Ouch! I thought I broke a couple, but one has seemed to come back to life and will move now. Thanks to Michael for getting me ice and making me sit down (I was trying to be stubborn and act like it didn't really hurt). Oh well, it's just a toe, I have 9 more! :)

Rainbow

I saw a rainbow on my way to work today. Ever since I was little, I've always thought that if I see a rainbow, it's my lucky day. So, bring on the luck! Actually, I don't need luck, I have a good life. I recently got out of a situation that wasn't right for me and now I'm moving on and working towards a much better situation. The future looks very bright!
Yesterday made 2 years for Scott and myself. We're not big on the whole "anniversary" thing. Last year I bought him a new glove and he bought me a bat. Which was just fine with me, I really wanted a new bat. This year we decided not to do gifts or anything. Much to my surprise, I came home to flowers and a card. Scott hates cards and complains about having to buy flowers, so this was unexpected and now I feel bad that I didn't do anything for him. But, at the same time, we agreed not to do anything, so then I think I shouldn't feel bad. I'm torn on that one. He hates receiving cards as much as he hates buying them, so I don't think he really cared, so I should stop worrying about it. Anyways, that's all that's new with me.

Never A Dull Weekend

Our team was in Olathe, KS over the weekend. It was definitely full of excitement. Of course, not all of it good, there was some drama, but I still had a fun weekend. I decided to buy a bottle of Tequila Rose, among other drinks (I had never tried it before, but anything with the word Tequila will catch my eye). With a little bit of help, we finished off the bottle in two nights. That stuff goes down waaaaay too easy! As for the tournament, we didn't win, but some good things happened and the girls did come out and play well. There will always be those out there that think winning is everything, but I was happy to be in the "A" bracket playing teams that pushed our girls. I feel they will benefit more out of those experiences than going out and playing teams that are nowhere near our level of play. Our girls were noticing things the other teams we played were doing and started thinking about how they could/should be doing these things. We played an entire game without a single one of our girls striking out. And our outfield got more action this weekend than I think they have all year. They improved with every game on getting the ball in quick and hitting their cut-offs. These things to me are more important than the score at the end of the game. I don't think we would have had these opportunities for the girls to learn if we had played in the "B" bracket. But, that's just my opinion as a coach.

Hmmm....

I am rarely at a stage for a loss of things to write about, but this has been one of those weeks. I guess nothing exciting that I can write about has happened. Although, that can be a good thing, at least I have nothing to complain about right? I'll just babble for a bit. For the past year I have worked really hard at trying to look more positively at things and not always see just the bad things. I have found that this is a much more satisfying way to live. I grew up with a parent that always saw the negative in everything and dwells on those bad things. I developed the same attitude and was not exactly pleasant to be around at times (well, lots of times). I don't remember being very happy and cheerful growing up. I definitely have a different outlook on life these days and try to stay happy as much as possible. I still have my moments, I pout and grumble and get mad. But, I'm much better at just being that way for a short amount of time, instead of carrying that on for days. I think that every once in a while every one needs to take a step back for a moment and analyze themselves. Try to see how you appear to other people. For a long time I always said that if I was any of my friends and I had met me, I wouldn't like me. That's a horrible way to feel about yourself and the worst part of it was, I thought that way but did nothing about it. I now take a step back every couple years and look at who I am and make sure I am happy with who I am. If I see things I don't like, I fix those things. The important thing about changing yourself is that you should never change yourself just because someone else wants you to change. Ok, I'm done rambling now.

Moms are the Best!!!

My great grandmother passed away in March and I took it pretty hard. We were very close and she was such a wonderful person. I miss her sooo much! When I was little and we would go over to visit her, she would always have this old homemade Noah's Ark sitting out waiting for me. It was my favorite thing to play with. When she passed, I really wanted to get this to remember her by and was going to wait for the Estate sale to buy it. Well, my mom surprised me with it last night! It actually almost got thrown out because no one knew what it was. You definitely can't tell it's supposed to be a boat, it's just a couple slabs of wood thrown together with an opening for the animals to go up the ramp and it's falling apart. But, as a kid I didn't care, I loved that thing! I have to say that this is now the most valuable thing I own and I will forever be greatful to my mom.

Feels Like Summer

For some reason, it just feels like summer now. For one, I painted my toe nails last night. There is something about painted toes that makes me think of summer. I wear sandals and expose my toes all year, but never seem to care what they look like until summer. I know, I'm odd, get over it. Also, I was sitting in the backyard at Mike and Erin's last night and with the kids running around playing and the guys throwing the football around, it reminded me of when I was kid and out of school and could stay up late playing in the yard. It was nice to sit around and relax and enjoy the beautiful weather. Of course, while I was sitting there, I still managed to get hurt. The guys were each in their own backyards playing catch with the football and the guy two houses down apparently has about as good of aim as my girls did the first week of practice. I didn't even see it coming, the football smacked right into the side of me. The ribs are a little sore, but I'll survive. Of course, if Mike wasn't so old and slow, I might not have to be complaining right now! ;-)